Love affairs with Architecture

flightless bird.

2011-12-14T11:14:00.000-08:00

2011

Good ol days.

2011-12-14T09:18:00.000-08:00

bromance.

2011-11-27T00:11:00.001-08:00

BUCKET LIST

2011-11-15T10:19:00.000-08:00

get married
cross a country on a bicycle
go camping
~~own a diploma in architecture~~
visit France
own a unicycle
expert in another language
become an Architect
~~travel around america~~
travel india by train
~~visit Alkatraz~~
take horseback riding lessons
travel to germany to experience love parade or other big festival
go to mecca
~~watch an orchestra performance~~
spend a whole day at the cinema
be inspired
be in two places
make friends with a stranger
volunteer on charity work
make blood donation
~~write a song~~
learn to surf
save someones life
walk on fire
learn to juggle
discover happiness
ride a hot air balloon
deactivate facebook
gather more than 200 people at one place
~~be on stage~~
own a degree in architecture
attend fine art classes
~~learn how to play the bass~~
own a driving license
learn how to bake a cake
meet a famous person
wear a hijjab
survived 2012
make amends with exes
study abroad
own a car
go jungle trekking
~~own an apartment~~
attend Comic-con
dress as darth vader
~~sleep on an overnight train ride~~
learn light saber combat
paint a whole house
~~visit universal studio US~~
do community service
donate clothes
visit England
~~visit disneyland US~~
hug an elephant
ride the motorcycle blind folded
make mom and dad proud
be spontaneous
deep sea diving
jump off all the highest bungee jump
HAVE A PEN PAL
send a message in a bottle
make a snow angel
go to the airport and take the next random flight somewhere
get my masters degree
dressup as freddie mercury to class
forgive the people that have hurt me the most
be rebellious
build a massive sandcastle
~~shake hands with childhood hero~~

LIFE 101

2011-11-15T08:58:00.000-08:00

20th.

2011-11-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

thank you sayang, you're the best.

what will become of me.

2011-10-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

i am not happy, im not as happy as i should be. by all means, i am not happy with my level of happiness. i'm still bound by what happened between me and M, its the biggest fight we had, it's 3 in the morning and i am so worried what will become of tomorrow.by the way i've finished my Diploma in Architecture, i'm finally moving out from my lame-ass apartment, FINALLY leaving my fucked up college, i don't have the heart anymore. but i just can't accept the fact that i'm leaving so many memories behind, memories i shared with my crazy friends :( the memories i spend days and nights at the studio, but most of all, the memories i shared with M is irreplaceable.

untitled.

2011-10-23T10:51:00.000-07:00

i havent cried since, god knows when. but when i do, it'll never stops.

i deserve to be happy too, i deserve to cry once in a blue moon, i have my right. you wish for the best, and trust me, i am trying so hard, pushing-to-the-limits-trying to impress you every day, since the day we've met. but why am i the only one that feels like i'm alone in this relationship. if i'm such a burden, then let me free.

you said it yourself, we can't go on, if its long-distance. i said i want to give it a try, but you never gave us a chance.

i can't handle anymore heartbreaks, for what ive been through, its more than enough.

Future.

2011-10-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

"happiness, found"

our glory days.

2011-10-11T12:37:00.000-07:00

"I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over."

wiggle wiggle

2011-09-28T00:09:00.000-07:00

stay golden.

2011-09-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

courtesy to Ejad.

iftar - fabulosity!

2011-08-20T14:12:00.000-07:00

good food and amazing friends!

what you missed.

2011-07-20T16:35:00.000-07:00

i lost my mother's sewing machine, my brother found an IPAD 2 across the street, 'COLORAMA' our school first ever Architectural Workshop was a successful event, met my long lost buddy qib at KLCC, made new lovely friends with the new intakes, met my long lost best friend since preschool, and the list could go on! its been a lucky-crazy month for me. i'm dying for another adventure!

oh did i mention that, i'm currently on my final semester in KLIUC? :(

part of Kaca.

2011-06-22T15:39:00.000-07:00

my dysfunctional lover

2011-06-20T10:29:00.000-07:00

Hi, you're miles away from me. i miss you, your crazy jokes, your insecure looks, that crooked smile, that half asleep pair of eyes, your bad haircut, your pink hanky, your bad choice of music, your laugh, the way you made me feel comfortable about being myself, the random 3 o'clock food hunt cause you're always hungry, the fight, the name callings, your sarcastic ways of saying you love me too, watching you fall asleep, watching you snores like a pig, watching you act a fool out of yourself, and the constant need, to pinch your annoying face dysfunctional

needless to say, i heart thee :)

night of terror.

2011-06-19T14:36:00.000-07:00

best of KLIUC architecture club.

a lover and a best friend

2011-06-19T11:25:00.000-07:00

zombified boyfriend!

Alicia Keys - Karma

2011-05-23T06:13:00.000-07:00

i am at my happiest

2011-05-23T06:06:00.000-07:00

"A man is born alone and dies alone; and he experiences the good and bad consequences of his karma alone; and he goes alone to hell or the Supreme abode"

"I believe in Karma. If the good is sown, the good is collected. When positive things are made, that returns well"

i am now at my happiest state. its good to here that now you're the one who's miserable, lonely and PATHETIC.

life as an architecture student

2011-05-21T12:51:00.001-07:00

though as an architecture student, i may have ruined my social life, ditched my old friends over architecture and redbulls, felt pity for the person ive turned out to be, gained weight, starting to blame the clothes for not having my size(the thought of writting this, makes me sad) the sleepless nights, anxiety attack and such, at the end of the day, i know its for the better and soon will be worth the effort! i should probably keep my mouth shut and stop complaining.

why dad why

2011-04-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

so my dad posponed our trip to india till end of this year, i am so pissed that i've waited for the trip since beginning of last year. i even googled the place that we were ACTUALLY gonna go visit. i is sad, i is veri sad :(

yours truly, stay cat

2011-04-26T11:02:00.000-07:00

its me against the world. this past few weeks has been horribly wrong in terms of me having the worst weeks of my life. i never felt this dumb and so goddamn broke.

i need to start saving up some moolah. i miss hostel, i hate my apartment. i'm getting poor living like this! :(

our first ever show together

2011-04-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

my life.

2011-04-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

I'M COMPLAINING

2011-04-04T02:40:00.000-07:00

i ran out of million things to say, my mind is all twisted and boring. i spend way too much at home, i need to get out! is it just me or, the couch is eating me alive, HBO has been a dreadful disappointment.

this semester break sucks. i want to travel. i miss my best friend. i miss my guy friend. shit, i miss our gossip sessions, our fun tangling aling, and getting baked! its monday, and i'm in my drama queen mode, and its NOT GOOD.

OK BAI, I MUST KILL MA SELF

I'm loosing interest,

2011-03-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

its been a chaotic week, been going up hill and down low, stayed up late till dawn, food gets the best of me (and yeah i blame the fridge), had a huge mega fight with wonder boy, and yes, life has been hectic. march has been HECTIC. its clear that i'm gaining alot of 'efforts', jeans, i'm sorry for disappointing you, i have a j-lo ass and a bozonkers thunder thigh. just bear with me for a few more inches.

SEMESTER BREAK! finally, imma be spendin ma two-(i wish for more)-stress-free weeks on the couch with my darling HBO and MTV! so mmkay, i'm going to miss my boyfriend A LOT. tho we see each other every-single-fucking-day, its never enough, and two weeks without him is going to be a battle (band of brothers mode)

HAPPY SEMESTER BREAK KIDS, lay off the drugs!

pure human being

2011-03-25T08:51:00.000-07:00

i am fucking everything up, from my life for starters and my relationship with the beau. yeah yeah, it's my fault for not being too, what you say, SOFTY. i've been too hard on him, i is the problem.

i'm sorry for being mean to you love, its just that, i'm all crumbled and heartless, its who i am. i'm still your cookie, rough on edges, soft and chocolatey on the inside. i'll be good, i'll be good for good.

miss you,

kiss!

Fuck the world.

2011-03-04T12:46:00.000-08:00

i know and i am aware of my dateline is just two weeks away, but the internet is too darn seductive.

it's irresistible, mind-fucked, and absolutely WASTING MY WHOLE WEEK OF WORKING OF MY EFFIN PROJECT!

there! I SAID IT.

For the win.

2011-03-02T12:35:00.000-08:00

bloody hell, i'm restless, tired and fucking uninspired. been so busy, my mind is too occupied with my works in progress. everything feels out of place, i'm gaining weight, my hair is all frizzy and messed up, my schedule is everywhere, been locking myself in this shit hole i called 'temporarily paradise'. well enough the misery and laboredness, i just bought myself a temporarily morphine to shine up my life!

cut it short. i just bought topshop's make up, and cost me my two weeks allowance. and i feeeeeeeel super guilty and happy at the same time! i'm so broke, i can feel the guitl in my gut for buying useless expensive things, but the urge to own it is satisfuckingfaction.

i love my new satin topshop lipstick and my new ashy grey eye shadow! FTW!

it's pouring rain in my heart,

2011-02-20T03:05:00.001-08:00

my mind is on crack. i can feel the tiredness that numbs my every veins, to make the slightest move hurts every muscles, i can't think nor speak a revenge. my whole body needs it's morphine, a small dose of caffeine would light up though it may took my eight whole hours. been listening to MONO since 5 a.m, it vibrates my motivation to do my work. just a couple more, i said to myself.

just a couple more

the whole week has been dead, except for the many adventures that highlighted my whole weekend, but deep inside, i'm devastated, i'm depressed, and terrified. i just need my vibe back.

eversince

2011-02-18T11:04:00.000-08:00

my grandmother passed away on valentine's day. the moment i heard the news, i wish i had never picked up the phone, knowing the fact that she's gone feels like 10,000 needles piercing through my heart. i didnt get to say my goodbyes, i miss her terribly and it hurts me a lot. every now and then, when i'm alone, i closed my eyes and i tried to reminisce the memories of me and grandma. even trying to catch her smell as if she's there with me. we miss you, and we love you. you'll be much safer in heaven. i will keep on saying my prayers for you grandma.

the beds in hospital, was the last time i spent with arwah.

hating me won't make you pretty,

2011-02-18T10:41:00.001-08:00

you're so pathetic, its hilarious. and its so funny to me because you're so insecure, you make up stories just to fit in, how fucking sad, really. you're by far the COOLEST person i ever known, and no, i am not LYING.

BILA ARCHIES...

2011-02-07T21:19:00.000-08:00

BILA MEDI TAK BUAT KERJA, ME GIVING HIM THE 'EYE'

BILA NAUFAL JUMPE LIPAS

BILA NAUFAL DAPAT LARI DARI LIPAS

MUKA PATENG AND NAURAH BILA NAMPAK LAKI KIUT

BILA NIA DAPAT MAKAN APA YANG DIA NAK

this is our life. (archi version -.-)

2011-02-07T07:17:00.000-08:00

THE FEELING WE GET AFTER RECEIVING A TEXT MSG FROM THE LECTURER SAYING THAT OUR CLASS IS CANCELLED.

AND EVERYONE WAS LIKE

TAPI LUPA PULAK, YANG ESOK ADA CLASS LAIN AND ASSIGNMENT LAIN KENE HANTAR ESOK, IN REALITY THE LECTURES WERE LIKE

AND THE REST OF THE ARCHIS FEELS LIKE

owned!

another typical post

2011-01-21T19:16:00.000-08:00

college has kept me busy without me even realize that it's already 2011. time flies so fast, i didnt even get the chance to say my goodbyes. ive been swamped with mind teasing assignments which cost me more than i can afford. lacking of sleep is only a minor thing for me. the lack of inspiration is the worst. i tell myself every single day, SUCK IT UP, the mood for designs will flow soon enough(likewise) im just hoping that it'll be temporally. cause LAZY is disease. once i go lazy, i'll never coming back. for instance, this blog. so lets cut it short, i wish theres a time capsule, so i could freeze in time, sleep as long as i wanna, cause i am striving all my senses not to die from exhaustion. cause i need my mojo back. times a wasting. and i can't afford another screw up. you read that right, the domestic soul in me has returned.

oh by the way, i'm looking forward for my trip to INDIA this april. trip to perth in 2010 was amazing eventhough its not my first time coming to australia. i'm hoping a surprise trip to europe or africa or even egypt from dad (insyallah) i can't get enough of him always had the fun to travel the whole world and i'm stuck here wishing i was there with him. heh.

x,
ika

my tolerance.

2010-12-15T01:40:00.001-08:00

hate is a strong word to use, but i'm giving it a head start. my patience has just hit its limits, it means i could burst anytime by now. so don't push it.

just back off, you ruined every fucking thing.

i'm a mean bitch

2010-12-07T04:33:00.000-08:00

PROBS. so as you all can see that i haven’t been blogging for reasons i am unsure of, its either i'm uninspired to blog about or i'm far out too busy because i'm finally feeling at peace here and i am too busy to sit and focus because i actually have a social life now. heh its probably both. i am my own sanctuary and wouldn’t want to be anywhere else,truthfully. i'm enjoying all these moments so i deserve a month of laziness. dont you think so?

anyhow, past few weeks has been chaos, in terms, oh my-was-i-tired. and i wish to start from scratch again. semester just started, and i have debts to pay. well i owe my college 4000+ and its killing my dad killing me, get what i mean? but on the bright side, my loan just been approved :D so problem solved, i guess. BTW, i moved out from my hostel, i got my own apartment, like finally, what every 19 year old wants to start a new adventure on her own. and its only a couple minutes away from campus :)

oh by the way, i need a new laptop. mine kept pissing me off.

ika

deftones live in KL.

2010-11-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

fuck yes its a dream come true!
2011 IS GOING TO BE EPIC!

that is how the cookie crumbles

2010-11-17T12:41:00.001-08:00

why on earth did i gave up on longboarding. Oh wait, i was too busy enjoying my pathetic life in the studio.

a boring blogpost, don't bother reading this shit

2010-11-17T11:47:00.000-08:00

hello peers.

as far as you guys heard, yes, i gained a little weight (little? FUCK NO, in metaphorically speaking, i am like the whale in moby dick's story, thats what i'm talking about bitch) and i am not that far-out-fetching about the whole idea either. to my constant promises of my diet episodes seems to be an epic fail, i can assure you, by next semester i will try keeping up with what i consume, CONSUME LEESSSS i mean. and so it seems that i'm getting my own place soon, and to my suprise my apartment is just 4 blocks away from a fitness center, i am going to put an effort for a try out. ho yes i do, so finger crossed. oh and by the way, for all you typical minded hating-me whores, its not like i'm have insecurities about my figure, its just that my donut-effin-thighs, and my ass the size of j-lo's, i just want my rihanna's ass back :( heh. but i'm keeping the tummy.

the tummy stays :)

x,
ika

Ikan bilis

2010-11-14T12:34:00.000-08:00

to my precious well pet ikan bilis. i love you with all my heart, we're going to be the ultimate architect duo :D mucho lucho baby

I'm drowning with words

2010-11-14T12:02:00.000-08:00

i miss doing something that i'm really passionate about, like painting, i used to paint, i used to draw people, every details, every flaws, i sketched them perfectly, i used to imagined having my own big art gallery someday. and its all wasted, cause i hardly USE any of my talents, i forgot my ways, i'm loosing the passion that i love so much, and its drowning, my god, i'm turning into one of them anti-social freak, i neeeeeeeeeed to get out, not to be in denial, i do miss having a little bit of fun.

ps, gotta stop watching greys anatomy, its-affecting-me

x,
ika

November please be gentle

2010-10-28T00:09:00.000-07:00

GAME FACE ON*

SUCK IT UP, IKA

2010-10-08T16:15:00.000-07:00

NO SERIOUSLY.

guess what foxinatersss, i had my braces put on few days ago, the actual procedure of putting them on didnt hurt at a bit, BUT later that afternoon, the 'soreness' started, its not an excruciating pain, its more of an aggravating soreness that doesnt go away. so imagine the incredible annoying-soreness-pain i got myself into. the only thing that is aggravating the crap out of me is eating! and i have only eaten soft chewy foods since i had my braces put on. eating with braces sucks at first, but everyone keeps telling me you get used to it,

ika

i'm dead, no more size 10

2010-10-02T10:53:00.000-07:00

my intention to diet is an epic fail >.<

he never stop spoilling me.

2010-09-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

Thanks sayang, i louuuuuurrrrrrrve youh!

penetrate my brain cells!

2010-09-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

this is the part where, my mind went overboard with baked cookies, cause i'm craving for moree

i made a promise to my roommates, that i'm going to start toning down my body, loosing em kilos, cutting down them fats, or whatever you called it these days. so yeah, you'll be seeing THIS face every now and then at the gym. i hope i could cut down my eating habits, cause ya know, old habits do die hard, and its tormenting me every time i drove past by any bakery shop or Mcdonalds.

oh newsflash! i had my tooth pulled out the other day, it didnt hurt a bit, eventhough i had like 4-5 injections into my gums, i kind of like it, plus not like some people, blood didnt even bother me and right after the surgery dad took me to mcdonalds for breakfast -.- it was kind of hard for me to eat my burger cause i can't feel the right side of my mouth, my tongue were numb, and i can only feel the half of my lips. so imagine me sipping a really hot tea and i couldnt feel a thing. haha

just 2 more weeks left then i'll be wearing my braces on.

x,
ika

great friends, good food and everything in between

2010-09-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

nia's

farhana's

shen's

ajie's

everything polished

2010-09-16T09:36:00.001-07:00

well, this morning i got myself up way to early than i expected. this is a big step for me, as i am utterly horrible about getting myself up so early unless its for something super exciting and fun that ive been really, really looking forward to. this morning was not such a case, rather i decided last night that i needed to get up, get moving and catch up with my old friends. and i did hihi. ashree came and picked me up, gathered with the rest of the fellas and my best friend since its been several months apart. i had an exhausting day, other than feeding myself with food at ajie's open house, and i swear, i was possessed till i forgot all about my goal of loosing weight and went all on a chicken barbecue wing hunting spree. it was painful yet mouthful.

then amir sent me home, i can feel the exhaustion up my sleeve, curled up in bed feels so damn relaxing but i wish for a hot bath would be an instant recover right now. screw everything, my brain is shutting down from all the tiredness. right now, i need to get my beauty sleep, because tomorrow i have to wake up early and head back to campus. oh i wish for another few more days, i still do need to reset everything. it was an enjoyable day, the major highlight for this week!

x,
ika

birthday wish list

2010-09-15T23:02:00.000-07:00

nuff said :)

less to coffee, more to tea

2010-09-15T21:58:00.000-07:00

well, today has been pretty rotten, alarm clock woke me up by 8am, obviously been doing nothing other than feeding myself with food and leftovers. ive progressively cut back on my soda intake, and i'm trying to do a better job of eating one meal per day, rather than three -.- cut me some slack, i'm trying to loose some weight here.

at any rate, heres my goals for this coming month.

exercise five times a week every week (Maybe once a week)
cut down to carbs a day (ATLEAST)
eat three meals a day perhaps. three small, not totally junky meals tho
Get organized!
have a cleaning spree atleast once a week
blog daily (will try my best)
less buying stuff that i don't really need
meet new friends.
have dinner with boyfriend more often
LESS COFFEE, MORE TEA

OOKAY, im trying to stay realistic about my goals and i think all of these are very possible, i think. i'll try revisit this list once a month or so, just to be sure i'm staying on track :)

what i did

2010-09-15T08:52:00.000-07:00

so raya break came, and the moment it got here i started sucking badly at blogging. i MUST remedy this. ive been uber busy for the preparation and all, ive gotten way too excited , i wish i'd blogged it more often, and i'm really sorry i didnt, because ive had a lot going on, and that's usually the best time to blog. Didn't you miss my run-on sentences? i need to get back on track with my blogging. i used blogged daily you know, but making time to do it or finding something to write about has been a challenge lately -.-

oh classes start in a week. I am not excited.

almost died of boredom and my only companion is my laptop, which that leaves me no choice, ive pretty much wasted my time googling about;

cannibalism
taylor hanson
indian histories and beliefs
existence of giants and hobbits
and last but not least stalking former beaus

taylor hanson, i want to have your babies.

2010-09-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

They were one of my favs, i started listening to them since i was 7. and i had a huge fat ass crush on taylor hanson, and till NOW! look at him, hes fucking good-ass-looking, ho yeah, hes my Mcdreamy alright.

mmbop still hit the spot alright.

x,
ika

boyfriend doesnt mind having a rockstar partner

2010-09-13T13:10:00.000-07:00

HUM HUM HUM, IMMA BITE YUH

I live inside your face

2010-09-13T10:58:00.000-07:00

newsflash everyone,

my first hari raya was dull, boring and fast. i didnt get that much of moolah, except this year i earned a few bucks more than i earned last year. my second day of raya, stayed home at grandma's waiting for guest come in and out and greeting my other relatives, thank goodness for dad, he brought along his celcom broadband or else i will die of boredom. and not to mention the random fights i had with my STUPID, IGNORANT, LITTLE BASTARD brother, he's a pain at the ass, and no self respect towards me and my parents. i wish he's adopted. no really, i do. no wonder he got no friends, cause he's an idiot. lol ohhhhhhhhh and my cousin(which i'm not that 'sekepala' with) just added me on facebook heh.i dont know the purpose of him adding me other than being a busybody and all about my private life. i don't care if hes blood related or vice versa, hell no i'm gonna approve his friend request, huh

anyways, sayang and a couple of friends came over the other day, we went to ros's for a little supper, her mother were nice enough to cook for us, and FUCK YEAH, HER COOKING DO REALLY HIT THE SPOT. ho yeah :) thanks fellas, for sending me back to the hotel, and thanks sayang for coming the next day to meet me :D :D :D i had mega funnnnnnnnnn eventhough it was 'sekejap'. missing you really bad, heres my 8 gazillion kisses.(mengundang pada pagi raya, glamour jap ah)

xoxo
ika

we good like that

2010-09-13T10:52:00.000-07:00

Who wants the perfect guy? Not me. I don’t want anyone perfect. I don’t want anyone normal, thats just boring. I want someone weird. I want someone unpredictable. I want someone who lets things slide and who loves to laugh and makes me laugh. I want someone who will be crazy about me, and isn’t afraid to let everyone know it. I want him to be able to tell me to shut the hell up when I am bugging him. I want someone who challenges me, in every way. I want someone who puts up with my shit, but isnt a pushover. I want someone who pisses me off, but I can never be mad at. But perfect? That’s one thing I never want. Maybe just perfect for me.

Give us a break

2010-09-06T19:27:00.000-07:00

nak postponed present bungalow lepas raya pon tak boleh. bbi nye gorilla.

SAMBUT RAYA, BUAT MODEL, BUAT PRESENTATION BOARD, MAKAN KERTAS, MAKAN ASAH PENSIL, MAKAN MODEL BUNGALOW!

ffff uuuuu A-hole.

ALMOST DONE.

2010-09-01T17:33:00.000-07:00

just 3 more drawings left then i'm done for my final project Bungalow!

x,
ika

things i hate

2010-08-30T14:22:00.000-07:00

DONT 'IM' me if its not something important
DONT go all nice with me just cause i have a car
DONT go stealing my books behind my back
DONT go all bitching about my best friend infront of me.

x,
ika

k bye tbc

hihihihihi putih suci

2010-08-30T09:07:00.000-07:00

i bought 2 dresses and floral tank top from topshop and a cardi from miss selfridge, kay need more clothes for raya. and an ANKLE BOOT!

Thainese much

2010-08-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

hihi my cousin told me that i looked like my grandma when she was young -.- i'll take tht as a compliment, since my grandma was a knock-out when shes in her mid 20s. granpa couldnt take his eyes off of her. lol

*Thainese = thailand + chinese.

breath me some clothes.

2010-08-28T14:51:00.000-07:00

i am in need to shop. idfc. raya is just around the corner, i havent found my ideal 'fit'. but my eyes were totally glued on topshop's golden floral beaded shrugs. it would totaty match up my silver heels i bought the other month, and it cost only rm 198 hihi i'm lucky :D

idc, tomorrow or this tuesday i'm going to shop like mad!

x,
iks

Because when a girl falls for a player, she would risk her heart just to see if her love could make him retire his game.

2010-08-28T10:48:00.000-07:00

ಠ_ಠ

.when times get hard, your anxiety wont leave you alone.

2010-08-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

.lol i survived.

2010-08-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

i got some bad news and some good news. the good news is, I'M BACK ON TRACK MODAFACAS. my boyfriend took me paid a visit to the doctor's the other week, was worth for the shot at the butt, next thing you know, you're all better the next day, i feel healthy like a four-year-old. BUT! the bad part is, my boyfriend caught MY fever. lol. he got sick right away, i woke up and see him all weak and sore, i feel bad for him. anyways, he'll be fine, fed him some pills and a kissed on the forehead :)

apart from all the sickness that has been spreading. i've spent my time way too much on youtube and googling about heidi montag. to those who doesnt know who heidi montag is, well heres a little biography from me ; shes the idiot who married spencer pratt(the fame attention seeker), the girl that done 10 plastic surgery all at once(she almost died like MJ)including her gigantic breast implants which she allegedly told Life & Style magazine that her breast is literally crushing her tiny incy body of hers and thinking about reducing em big mamas. lol what a waste of 30k, with that money she could buy herself a new brain, shes wasting all her youth, she looked like fucking prostitute milf lol. she is well known for her stupidity and her famous lip syncing debut on Miss Universe, lol i couldnt watch more than 30 seconds of this embarassingly terrible 'performance'. she has not one drop of talent, sad that someone who does never would get thses breaks that this creature gets. can we never have to endure her retarded movements and taped 'singing' again? heh. ive spent my time way too much watching THE HILLS -.- ths gotta stop

PLEASE DIE HEIDI.

x
ika

.away i guess.

2010-08-26T16:22:00.000-07:00

i'm having a major headache, it feels like my brain been crushed by a stampede. i kept vomiting every hour, i lost my appetite, can't sleep, can't think, can't do anything straight.

in case if i'm dead in another couple of days or i stop posting ,tell my boyfriend, i love him, and he can keep my car, my architectural books, and my laptop. okay? and yeah tell him to dig another hole for my clothes.

love you mucho <3

k bye,
x,
ika

.my niggerpuff.

2010-08-20T17:14:00.000-07:00

no worries love, i can tolerate with your nightclub-city games and your left4dead. even when you sulk, it made me feel like i'm the 'boyfriend' in this relationship, even if we got into our little arguments again,shouting at first and the pushing to the next few scars, but we eventually end up laughing all about it. even when you let me steal a few bites off from your meal, you managed to delivered my needs well obtained. even when people couldnt understand us, but i understood us well enough for us to create our own little world. they called me mighty torture, you called me mighty love-godiva, we all have flaws within our shining gem-like-facades, i hardly overcome any of my fear devotion, but somehow you're the one that managed to perfected my flaws into clear cristal.

you even love me despite the fact that i had my tooth extracted and your toleration overr my torpedo mood swings :) ooooooooooooh yeah.

x,
ika

.focused, reverse and resume.

2010-08-19T15:55:00.000-07:00

if there were such award, i guess our studio might have won for the messiest studio ever, and not to mention our room! yes, our 216, our what you called 'mi casa', our 'temporaly home' smells like tariq's ass (no offence, but its the truth) and countless dust bunnies. its like a zoo in our room, except in our 'zoo', all that was left were the smell of rotten dead animals, no kidding. heh

how fetish is that? boyah.

x,
ika

.INTRUDERS.

2010-08-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

you heard them right.

2010-08-17T10:20:00.000-07:00

i had my tooth extracted the other day at tuanku mizan hospital, in wangsa maju -.- (i wish to not go there eithre, heh) the pain was unbearable enough to describe. the doctor insert this some kind of bracket to each side of my tooth, its dead uncomfortable and i have BLISTERS. heh THIS, what i have to face for my upcoming 2 years of wearing braces. yeah, you heard me, BRACES.

x,
ika

.hey udin, hey pain.

2010-08-04T23:07:00.000-07:00

don't let me pull a jessi slaughter 'pop a glock in your mouth and make a brain slushy' bitch. things are going out of hand, and you're dragging all of us in your so called 'pathetic excuse'. i dont blame you for your lack of brain cells, and distorted self esteem, you can't hide under your piles of lies anymore, i swear, i'll pull a bitch fit if you accused of me or any of my friends. you havent seeeeen the other side of me just yet, girlfriend :)

love xoxo
ika

.haters gonna hate.

2010-07-31T06:21:00.000-07:00

.our love is epic.

2010-07-30T19:09:00.000-07:00

.mo-hawk.

2010-07-30T18:30:00.000-07:00

ika handsome says aqil.

.my gap-tooth lover.

2010-07-29T22:51:00.000-07:00

smooch.

.i yell because i don't like you.

2010-07-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

Environmental Design class was a kick. had lunch with baby at isra's cafeteria, its better than our cafe and AFFORDABLE. nuff said. anyways, i'm bored. currently waiting or my next class, architectural design, which i am not looking forward to. lack of sleep equals to lack of focus. heh.

current mood : about to kill someone.

.si perempuan bodoh.

2010-07-29T08:51:00.000-07:00

you're second in my list, bitch. get the fuck off kliuc and go back to your dumbfuck puff daddy of yours. we don't need you here, this is for you, ruining our best friend life. pergi balik terengganu bodoh kau tu dengan jantan obssesed kau tu okay babi? yeah you, BABI. terasa pg mampos. kau buat kawan aku nangis, skang ko nak tehegeh2 nak tego aku. YANG AKU HERAN tgk muke kau barua. ko igt die sapa? tempat lepas sangap ko ke ha? bodoh nak mampos, sume nak itu nak ini nak. geram aku, aku cam nak pecah je muke ko. heh

from me, on behalf of others. nak nangis, pg la nangis, ngadu kat jantan bodoh kau tu. yang aku kesah.

x,
ika

.glitter and champagne.

2010-07-26T15:16:00.000-07:00

end of world war III. our presentation went well, mine was 'okay', boyfriend kept telling me i was among the best presenter just cause of my presentation board, i'm not that satisfied with my work nor presentation nor my design, i wish i could have more time to fix the mistakes, i wish i could have done better. so, for our next project, we were proposed to design shop lots. heh one of my least favorites things design but i'm well prepared for the challenge. nevertheless tomorrow's going to be our site visit to some nu-shops around bangi, i sure do hope the weather will not disappoint me this time, and i guess sir forgot to brief us about the 'project', talk about being 'PUNCTUAL' heh. i had a tired restless week, though fasting month is just around the corner, i have so many things to do, things to catch up on, this semester is hell, enough said. oh dad couldnt get the Slash tickets, he tried his best, i'm bitter and i envied to those who already bought their tickets. wish i could try harder or saved up more moolah. i'm sorry baby for disappointing you, we'll watch slash on tv together okay? thankgoodness theres MTV.

btw, i need more headbands, more sandals, and new kicks. went shopping with mom the other week, i've spent rm500+ on zara, just ZARA, just for 5 new tops and two pairs of skinnies(black and pink) in 5 seconds, lol. i am in love with my new pink skinny, its my favorite colour for this month, so take note! haters gonna hate, lol. pink is in fact the new black for this season.

and have i mentioned that i'm currently at home? brought boyfriend along with me again, my family gets along with him so well, especially my dad -.- i never seen him this 'friendly' towards my other boyfriends, cause he rarely talks or smiles to ANY of my previour beau. which is a good sign i guess? hihihi. medi, you're lucky, i'm lucky to have you, you're well mannered in your way, makes me laugh everytime i tried to pull a face, and spoils me with your love! i can't wait for australia, i can't wait for our degree together, hope it'll last, AMEN.

x,
ika

.what makes me tick.

2010-07-26T14:15:00.000-07:00

.VEGITECTURE.

2010-07-26T12:10:00.000-07:00

i adore Vegitecture especially green roofing buildings.

Some info about the system: "The air moves inside a perforated wall directly on the root system of plants, a series of mini-fans are strategically positioned to improve ventilation. This allows the roots rhizomes digest toxins from the air, absorption by roots is not only more effective but also prevents the plant from becoming toxic."

Based on the concept of bioregulation: "Since this is a system based on water evaporation and evapotranspiration of vegetation the amount of cooling that produces self-regulating function of temperature in the enclosure, ie plants evaporate more water when it is warmer, the This way of constant temperature and the temperature of the surrounding environment. This method of temperature regulation is much more beneficial for users of building a traditional air conditioning system."

.daily routines and architecture.

2010-07-25T11:49:00.000-07:00

i feel like writing, it's 3 in the morn, i'm way to excited to sleep, minus the 3 sleepless nights, my work here is done, Finally. from a whole weekend wasted just like that, i miss having 'fun'. its not like, i havent had any 'fun' for these past few days, i do, a lot. surrounded with my freaking-weird-friends, they're the antidote to my loneliness. heh i missed out on a lot lately, havent had a what-you-call steady meal + nap time. my eyes are so drawn out, i feel like a caterpillar in a small cocoon, except my cocoon in 'metaphorically speaking', my studio 007.

it's been a year, a unsteady sick sleepless insomniac 365 days of my life, been gaining and loosing weight heh. nobody would understand US, or know how US feels, unless you're one of US. are you? life as an architecture student is a pain at the a--

college is currently a b-i-t-c-h. having difficulties staying focus, finishing up other assignments, especially focusing about structural design subject. omges, to be frank, i 'dislike' that subject, cause numbers, well, we're not in the same route, so you do the math ay.

anyways, wish me luck for my presentation tomorrow. finger crossed.

x,
ika

.PERANGAI.

2010-07-22T08:02:00.000-07:00

menyusahkan! jangan harap aku nak bagi sesape pgg kunci studio! kalau nak gune studio, BIA AKU YANG PEGANG KUNCI AND BUKAK KAN. paham? sekor2 tanak mengaku. aku bg kau kunci utk ko pgg kan BUKAN TOK KO BG ORG LAIN OR HILANG KAN!

PERANGAI! heh.

.my skull is about to explode.

2010-07-22T06:53:00.000-07:00

i am so relieved that our presentation just got extend till next monday, which means i have another extra 3 days to finish up all this shitty showroom. and i havent had a what you call, proximately 8 hours of good night sleep for the past 7 days. its part of the architecture student life if i may say so, and i am so not loving every minute of it. apart from raccoon eye bags, bad dried skin, random fights with the boyfriend and to top it all, i have a handful of other assignments to think about simultaneously, i think i might have a possibilities of 120% chances of getting stroke in my early 20s. heh.

bye, i'm back to my bitchy mode. prepare to die bitches.

OH BTW. please don't compare me with my idiotic useless cousin, she's nothing but looks and her falseness. i got nothing to do with her, and don't you 'why you tk mcm cousin you?' or i swear i will fuck the life out of you stupid ass bitch. aku bukan jenis MACAM dia yang suke tayang muke sana sini. heh.

x,
ika

.i will nenen you to death.

2010-07-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

.say hello to my revlon hot pink bubble gum flavoured nail polish.

2010-07-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

4 MORE TO GO :D

my baby is the best :)

,anal hole.

2010-07-17T13:10:00.000-07:00

i'm stuck. my thoughts, ideas, suddenly ran out of inspiration. i can't think nor have any idea how on earth i'm going to finish up my showroom project in time(8 days till presentation) and i still have no friggin idea how my design would look like and still havent figure out the concept for it. i am THIS close to giving up, i hate this stupid project.

shit fuck.

,i feel like i could be with you forever.

2010-07-16T15:04:00.000-07:00

TOP 5 NEEDS FOR MY SUMMER COLLECTION.

5. Revlon colorburst lipstick 4. Revlon Bubble Gum hot pink3. Topshop summer collection maxi dress 2. Kate Moss Topshop summer collection
1. MAC to the beach collection (TO DIE FOR, i can't find em at any local mac store here, BUT I'LL NEVER GIVE UP, I WILL OWN YOU)

.be penduncle.

2010-07-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

pardon me for my absence. i am now busy with my current infatuations for i am NOW, a game addict. eversince tariq brainwashed me on playing nightclub city, i was way to pendicle towards the game, i even forgot about my assignment, i skipped brunch, forgot to wash the dishes and ive been lack of focus on everything lately. but on the contrary, i manage to ignore playing that awfully-addictive game for a day even i have the guilt of pleasures on checking my level every 15minutes, and the great thing is I SURVIVED and managed to finish my assignment on time! ALL THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND :D plus even manage to clean up my room :) oh by the way, HAVE I MENTION THAT I LOST ABU, the cat :( i miss him so dearly, please come home, we need you, daddy need you :( urgh

anyways,

and im off the bed.

.ARE YOU MENTAL? ; YES.

2010-07-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

WHATS UP WILLY WONKA?

.your 'gal'.

2010-07-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

today will be the second day i've been ignoring you, it was fun while it lasted. guess that you've changed, you never cared, you never give a damn. you never called, you never text, you didnt say hi or sorry or whatever. in the next few days, it going to be our 5th monthsarry. you're amazingly crazy sweet to me, but the sweetness sometimes turns into sour, and it made me sick to my stomach. i wish i was born gay so that i wouldnt careless about boys.

but, you dont know how deeply i'm in love with you, no boy could ever replace you. you'll never understand.

x,
ika

.LONG TIME NO HEAR.

2010-07-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

OH I'M SORRY, I DON'T LISTEN TO 'HARDCORE' LIKE YOU KIDS-THESE-DAYS DO. THIS IS THE REAL SHIT YOU MOTHER FUCKERS.

charles baby, you are heaven.

.OVERSEAS,

2010-07-02T03:56:00.001-07:00

i really do miss Perth, hell yeah i can't wait to get out of this concrete jungle. i hate this place so much, i sure can't wait to finish my diploma and head overseas.

oh fuck.

heres my list.

University of Tasmania
University of Queensland
University of New South Wales

.BOYS BOYS BOYS.

2010-07-01T16:51:00.000-07:00

I WILL SING YOU LOVE SONGS IF YOU PROMISED NOT TO BREAK MY HEART.

.you should know.

2010-07-01T16:19:00.000-07:00

.imma pre-loved stray cat.

2010-07-01T15:22:00.000-07:00

oh jack, will you marry me? i still love you so.

.my demands.

2010-07-01T13:29:00.000-07:00

i am an easy tempered person, you knew it and why don't you back off. my ego is what kept me alive, you know nothing about me and don't act like you do. i don't give easy goodbyes but you shout it out like it was a farewell to us, "go find someone else" you said; fine then, you'll be regretting it sooner or later, while i'll be enjoying my youth. if you can't handle me, then no one can. be like them cowards, walk out on me like they do best, cowards like them can't handle a tough cookie like me. i have wasted enough, why do i even care writing cause for all i know, you won't understand a shit.

my instinct was right, waiting for your call was a waste of time.

x,
ika

.i wish i was a baller.

2010-07-01T12:51:00.000-07:00

"People always think that the most painful thing is losing the one you love in your life. The truth is, the most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, forgetting that you are special too"

"Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it’s the only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no mater what. That piece holds innocence - the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you’ll never forget and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be. Everything that was proven wrong"

.to my fella rella.

2010-07-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

we used to be so tight, you were my fella, my nigger, my pimp, my buddy boo, my neck, my what-you-call, Best friend. call me shallow, but its the truth. i dont know what happen between us that made us apart, but you have no idea how i fucking missing you man, we were the sickest kid, i was your hakunamutata, and you were my snoop dog. shit man, we've done things together, had late night calls just cause i couldnt sleep and you were there to listened to my ramblings. what had happened between us was miracle, i miss you so much, you made me laughed so bad till i peed my pants, well almost, but i miss us so so so so bad!

shit, i wish i could turn back time and undo my mistakes :(

x,
ika

.no really.

2010-06-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

i hated when my plants died. frontier ville is addictive, trust me. i've been spending my time updating my plants and my babies(my lambs and my baby chickens) awee, though, the internet here keeps jerking me off. RELISH!

x,
ika